Does my Wife Love Me?

My name is John, am not usually into psychics and mystics and agony aunt stuff but here I am as things have changed.  My main thing in life is my wife,  but it seems to me she has gone off me or never loved me in the first place.  If she does not love me I must face the truth and end it and start again with someone else. I truly hope I am wrong but would love to know what you think...

My wife is forty years younger than me, she is fit and healthy, I am getting on,  a lot of health problems and not fit at all.  My wife has a full life with a big family and lots of friends.  I am often bed ridden, needing help from nurses and doctors round the clock,  often unable to even get up without help and it is very rare I can leave the house. When I do I need a lot of help and it is for something like a scan or x rays where it is important but they cannot come to me.   My wife is beautiful and has a lovely shape and looks good, I am bent over,  find it hard to laugh and smile now, nothing to look at.

I used to be a company director of a huge business, was often mentioned in the newspapers and on television and radio,  had to retire years ago due to bad health.  Wife is  not into working now but she used to be a receptionist at my company which is how we met. Now she spends time on skiing, table tennis, charity events, dinner parties,I do not get to spend much time with her and do not want her to stay at home and get bored instead.   One of her interests is this sort of stuff, she told me she has paid to consult Beth Shepherd about various things through psychic and tarot readings, she has also written to her staff to ask agony aunt advice from them and is very happy with what they say but I feel sad that she does not share these worries with me. I have a very good brain, nothing wrong with it, and would have been  happy to listen and help her as we are best friends too.

Our sex life is nil. I am not well enough, it is too difficult, impossible for me now in many ways. I dread the thought of her meeting some handsome young man and going off with him or sneaking behind my back and putting it about discreetly, both are horrible, would not blame her but it would break my heart if she did and I found out.

What do you say?